Just try to make the best of each day.
Yeah, it is the light. Or the lack thereof, rather.
Today in particular was hard because it was raining. So I didn't get a single minute of sunlight. Then I decided to drive around, and I ended up hydroplaning so close to another car that I had to just sit in a parking lot for an hour before I calmed down enough to go home. And... Well... There's more, but I don't want to get into it.
I only have three friends here, and two of them don't really care for me anymore. If I knew how to make friends I would.
HipsterKitty,
Everyone's life is full of disapointments and changes of direction. How you cope with life's setbacks is up to you. Believe me, I understand that sometimes our problems stack up until we are paralyzed and we don't know how to cope or which way to turn. When that happens, I have found that if you can quit worrying about all of them and just concentrate on fixing the most pressing problem, pretty soon you can solve all the ones that can be solved.
Not all of the problems can or will be solved. Some doors close and can't be re-opened. On the other hand, every day new doors will open.
I have learned that most of us are our own worst critic. If we accept that we are only human and are prone to make mistakes, we can try to ask forgiveness for our mistakes and accept and forgive our friends and neighbors when they make mistakes.
We have to try to solve our problems. It is human nature to help those who try to help themselves. Imagine 10 people detecting a muddy field. One falls down on their face. Everyone laughs. If the person lays there, no one will do much, but if they try to stand back up, generally, everyone will try to help them stand back up. If all 10 fall down, everyone helps themself and then they help each other.
The secret of making friends is to be a friend. Treat people the way you wish they would treat you. When you meet someone, introduce yourself, and turn the conversation so that it is about them and their interests. Everyone wants to share their thoughts and feelings about things. Share, of course, means that both of you give and take. Once the other person has got you caught up on thier life and adventures, the will invariably want to find out what is going on with you.
Accept people for what they are, what they have been, and what they will be. Don't try to change them.
Everyone carries burdens they can't share with you. Everyone has parts of thier life they can't share with you. We all do. When you run into one of these, don't press them to divulge. It is perfectly alright to say "That is none of your business".
It is not your job to solve all the problems of the world. You are expected to fix the things around you, if possible, and to clean up the messes you make!
Oh, by the way, you are wrong about the number of friends that you have. I think that there are a lot of people that read your posts and some of them respond to you. I know that whenever I sign in, I always go to the advanced search function and type in "Hipsterkitty" to see what new threads you have posted and what is going on with you. I do the same for several other people, just to see what is going on with them.
I think of you, and all these other people as my friends, even though I have never actually seen you, or them, face to face and likely never will. Still, they are willing to put thier foot forward and share, and I accept thier thoughts and opinions. Sometimes I post and am always interested in people's responce.
HH, and I hope your life is full of sunny days.
John Morton